Sometimes I just really need to sit down and talk some real shit to myself and I'm going to do it on here in case anyone else needs to hear this today.
So dear me,
You are NOT what other people see in you. You are all the things you see in yourself.
I know you have doubts about your abilities. Everyone has that struggle. But for the love of god, don't you let it define you for even a second. You can do this or you would not be doing it. Dare to dream. Legends aren't made by people hiding in their basements.
I know you want to give up. Life is hard. It's frustrating, and sometimes taking a step forward isn't recognized by the people around you. Sometimes it is not even recognized by yourself. Here's the catch. You can change you. You make your perspective. You create your world. Create the best one for you and if you're going to spend your days worrying, worry about everything that YOU have control over. No one is going to make this life for you. You will with your own blood sweat and tears. Stop being dependant on the idea of acceptance and praise.
When you feel like crying, fucking do it. Do it with every ounce of your being. When you feel like laughing, laugh louder than anyone in the room. Be who you are. That person is loved. That person is special. That person can change this world.
STOP getting angry at all of the things that are wrong with the world. I know it's easier to look at the bad, but that isn't who you are. You are an optimist. You are clear headed. Use that optimism to light up your own life. Make it as bright as you can.
If you can forgive other people for hurting you, then give that same level of respect to yourself. This world is full of critics. You don't need to be another one. Love yourself.
Don't forget to look at how far you've already come. This is not a rush or a race to the finish line. Things will work out in the most inexplicable way sometimes, so stop trying to write the chapters that haven't happened yet.
Slow the hell down. Your brain can get you far. Just take care of it and let it have a break sometimes. Write your heart down. Use another organ for a while and stop over thinking. That too has a place, but not right now. You need to find some peace in your own mind.
STOP dwelling on the past. It is over. Those problems are gone. The only problem that exists is the ones you're creating. Let go of the rope that is holding you back. Stop letting it cut you. Stop letting it control your progress. Move forward. Life's about learning the art of letting go.
If you need to read this to the end, and you are, then look in the mirror and name three things you love about yourself. Just do it. Make a habit of doing it every time you don't know how to continue. You can. I believe in you.
Life's about making the shitty situations as beautiful as you can. Hope for the best days, but know that when they don't happen, and you feel exhausted, there is ALWAYS a reason to smile. You just have to find it.
My name is Morgan and I have a passion for writing, just as I have a passion for supporting those that suffer from various mental health concerns. I fully believe that each day is brand new and we can do with it as we wish. Mental illness is crippling, and you may lose the battle but that does not mean that you will lose the war. Keep fighting and know that you are not, and never will be, alone.