July 03rd, 2016

SURVIVING THE PLUNGE

Rock bottom. It had finally reached me. I did not feel anything anymore. I couldn't. There was no joy, no love, no happy ending. Life seemed to consist of an eerie wavering of my own thoughts. I was lost in the depths of the darkest ocean. I sank, releasing my utmost melancholic emotions. There was no way out. As my suffocation surpassed metaphorical and i descended into the depths of my own mind, i realized that i was surrounded entirely by a sea of my own thoughts. Then suddenly, the sunlight faded in all of its entirety. I could no longer see any light. As the last beams faded into oblivion, i realized for the first time that i missed the very light that i had lost. I missed the one thing i never felt that i could see. I found myself in the darkness of the ocean. The darkness gave me the greatest epiphany of life. It was an epiphany that propelled me forward. It is the one that forever impacts me. The one that came when i was diluted in a sea of darkness and obstreperous thought. It was the first time in my life that i realized that darkness wasn't for me- the first time i realized that i wanted to live.